Hey,
a friend of mine, Ayeshah Dean, said that I was using my mother to excuse myself from living my own life. I think that she's right, but I have a VERY just cause. My mother really does need my help. I also don't want to hand off her needs unto other family members. I do feel at times that I'm shielding Andrew from the responsibility of caring for mom, but he does go out often. I suppose I must talk to him more about being by mom's side.
I'm sort of writing off Ian, but I will keep peace with him since he did pay some money for rent and Shaunah's car was very useful. I really need to take a walk. I feel like getting drunk or seeing a late movie all by myself. Maybe I'll dash out to see Catching Fire, lol.
Oh, Lord, help me! I just want be happy again and to not grieve over anything. I know that that's practically impossible, but please, help me God to see light at the end of the tunnel of despair. Amen.
a friend of mine, Ayeshah Dean, said that I was using my mother to excuse myself from living my own life. I think that she's right, but I have a VERY just cause. My mother really does need my help. I also don't want to hand off her needs unto other family members. I do feel at times that I'm shielding Andrew from the responsibility of caring for mom, but he does go out often. I suppose I must talk to him more about being by mom's side.
I'm sort of writing off Ian, but I will keep peace with him since he did pay some money for rent and Shaunah's car was very useful. I really need to take a walk. I feel like getting drunk or seeing a late movie all by myself. Maybe I'll dash out to see Catching Fire, lol.
Oh, Lord, help me! I just want be happy again and to not grieve over anything. I know that that's practically impossible, but please, help me God to see light at the end of the tunnel of despair. Amen.
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