I still want to travel... Mom is doing better, but still needs help... I feel like an ass for not helping her when I can, but honestly I feel physically TIRED. I feel like I never get enough sleep. I worry about her taking all her pills, but I wish that she would take them without being prompted.
I'm thinking of applying for a Librarian job in Shanghai, but I ask myself what do I really want? Do I want to keep hopping around the world and not being fixed in one place? I ... could have said YES! without reservation months ago, but now I feel guilty for wanting to leave home. Mom said that she supports my travel desires, but I'm not sure of anything right now.
I think that I much prefer to stay in the librarian profession. If I go abroad to work, then I hope it's to work as a librarian and not as an English teacher. I'll continue to see what my options are before I make a choice. I could force myself into an English teacher job, but I'm not sure that I will enjoy the experience.
I wish that this were easier, but mom did speak about me going to China in September or October. That would be nice, but now I'm confused because I've been trying to convince myself to stay in Georgia for work. Life is certainly not easy.
I just applied for a Library Assistant position at GPC in Decatur. I just want to earn enough money to pay the mortgage and bills, but soon I will need to earn money to repay my student loans.
Let's see how things go. I'll try my best to make the right choice.
I'm thinking of applying for a Librarian job in Shanghai, but I ask myself what do I really want? Do I want to keep hopping around the world and not being fixed in one place? I ... could have said YES! without reservation months ago, but now I feel guilty for wanting to leave home. Mom said that she supports my travel desires, but I'm not sure of anything right now.
I think that I much prefer to stay in the librarian profession. If I go abroad to work, then I hope it's to work as a librarian and not as an English teacher. I'll continue to see what my options are before I make a choice. I could force myself into an English teacher job, but I'm not sure that I will enjoy the experience.
I wish that this were easier, but mom did speak about me going to China in September or October. That would be nice, but now I'm confused because I've been trying to convince myself to stay in Georgia for work. Life is certainly not easy.
I just applied for a Library Assistant position at GPC in Decatur. I just want to earn enough money to pay the mortgage and bills, but soon I will need to earn money to repay my student loans.
Let's see how things go. I'll try my best to make the right choice.
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