God... I hate my family. I want to leave home and go away! I hate that I've reduced my life for them. Doing this has been good to help my mother, but I'm ready to leave. Andrew and Carlyle, Jr. continue to smoke weed. Carlyle, Jr. broke up with Iris after about two years of being a couple. He's now with Shawna, a 35 year old mother of two sons. I met her younger son Saturday evening. I feel sorry for him, because Carlyle, Jr. is... not very smart and a waste of time for the most part. He's also not diligent about thinking of other people. He's an idiot.
Andrew has been living with his girlfriend, Brittany or staying with friends in order to get to work more easily. He chose this solution since he got his car into an accident about two months ago. I think that he was slightly drunk or was just being stupid. His car is geared to go to fast, thus I'm not surprised that he ended up in an accident late at night, when his eye-sight is minimal.
I suppose that they both see themselves as men, but I think that they're both still quite immature. I hate their father, Carlyle, Sr. who probably has a big problem with a debt collector or some such entity. He cheated on my mom and chose to live with the other woman. He pre-mediated a lot. He bought a new house and thought to have Andrew, Carlyle, Jr. and even me to live with him... I was absolutely REPULSED at the idea. I HATE him. I Hate them all.
As for my mother... I've been doing my best to care for her and try to keep our house, but frankly... I'm losing interest. I wonder if moving to New York City isn't better and selling the house too? However, I know that keeping the house is better for preparing my mother for retirement. She'll want a cozy place to live. I also like having a place to return to after living abroad or traveling.
I wonder what to do? Should I bother to confront Carlyle, Jr. about his girlfriend, Shawna? Or is that a mute point? They are presumably sleeping downstairs together. In what manner, I don't know. Have they had sex? I don't know. I find them both pitiable and sad. I don't understand why Shawna likes him. I guess women find him funny and cute. Women are dumb in that case, then. Or just the ones that like him. So, I ask myself... should I impede their relationship or allow it to run its course? CJ said that they're only dating. I don't know... I think Shawna likes him more than that, but I could be wrong.
Well, I just wanted to write about my thoughts. I haven't slept well since Shawna is still here. I thought that she would stay home, but she only dropped off her son. She and CJ returned to the house. I'm not pleased. I will speak to CJ about that.
I guess it's because of all this reckless drama that my mother became unhinged and unbalanced. I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The house smells of weed... brought to us by Andrew and/or Carlyle, Jr. and Shawna. Oh, God, this is my life, lol! I hate these bastards. I wish them to Hell. Maybe I should have more hope, but I won't feel good until Shawna leaves. Perhaps I'll say something to her at her moment of departure, lol. This is the first time that she has dared to sleep at our house. How long did that take? About two weeks, lol. So, now I ask when shall they have intercourse or has that happened already?
THUS, why I want to get the Hell away from all of them. I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY--ASSHOLES! All of them, even my mother! She helped to create this current reality. Whatever, FUCK THE WORLD! THE WHOLE WORLD SUCKS! Everyone in the world are cock-suckers and I hate them all!
GOOD! Now I feel better. Fuck this shit! I hope the Foreign Service sends me an email this week and that I can do the Oral Assessment, otherwise, I'm getting the fuck out of Georgia! I still hope to get the job with Express Jet, Upward Bound and/or Bags, Inc. in order to stay for mom, but honestly I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY. I should forsake them to be a disciple of Christ. They are not worth my time. They're cock-suckers and evil shits. I hate them. I hate them all. I raise up and adore Christ instead of them. FUCK THOSE EVIL ASSHOLES. They can go to Hell.
Andrew has been living with his girlfriend, Brittany or staying with friends in order to get to work more easily. He chose this solution since he got his car into an accident about two months ago. I think that he was slightly drunk or was just being stupid. His car is geared to go to fast, thus I'm not surprised that he ended up in an accident late at night, when his eye-sight is minimal.
I suppose that they both see themselves as men, but I think that they're both still quite immature. I hate their father, Carlyle, Sr. who probably has a big problem with a debt collector or some such entity. He cheated on my mom and chose to live with the other woman. He pre-mediated a lot. He bought a new house and thought to have Andrew, Carlyle, Jr. and even me to live with him... I was absolutely REPULSED at the idea. I HATE him. I Hate them all.
As for my mother... I've been doing my best to care for her and try to keep our house, but frankly... I'm losing interest. I wonder if moving to New York City isn't better and selling the house too? However, I know that keeping the house is better for preparing my mother for retirement. She'll want a cozy place to live. I also like having a place to return to after living abroad or traveling.
I wonder what to do? Should I bother to confront Carlyle, Jr. about his girlfriend, Shawna? Or is that a mute point? They are presumably sleeping downstairs together. In what manner, I don't know. Have they had sex? I don't know. I find them both pitiable and sad. I don't understand why Shawna likes him. I guess women find him funny and cute. Women are dumb in that case, then. Or just the ones that like him. So, I ask myself... should I impede their relationship or allow it to run its course? CJ said that they're only dating. I don't know... I think Shawna likes him more than that, but I could be wrong.
Well, I just wanted to write about my thoughts. I haven't slept well since Shawna is still here. I thought that she would stay home, but she only dropped off her son. She and CJ returned to the house. I'm not pleased. I will speak to CJ about that.
I guess it's because of all this reckless drama that my mother became unhinged and unbalanced. I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The house smells of weed... brought to us by Andrew and/or Carlyle, Jr. and Shawna. Oh, God, this is my life, lol! I hate these bastards. I wish them to Hell. Maybe I should have more hope, but I won't feel good until Shawna leaves. Perhaps I'll say something to her at her moment of departure, lol. This is the first time that she has dared to sleep at our house. How long did that take? About two weeks, lol. So, now I ask when shall they have intercourse or has that happened already?
THUS, why I want to get the Hell away from all of them. I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY--ASSHOLES! All of them, even my mother! She helped to create this current reality. Whatever, FUCK THE WORLD! THE WHOLE WORLD SUCKS! Everyone in the world are cock-suckers and I hate them all!
GOOD! Now I feel better. Fuck this shit! I hope the Foreign Service sends me an email this week and that I can do the Oral Assessment, otherwise, I'm getting the fuck out of Georgia! I still hope to get the job with Express Jet, Upward Bound and/or Bags, Inc. in order to stay for mom, but honestly I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY. I should forsake them to be a disciple of Christ. They are not worth my time. They're cock-suckers and evil shits. I hate them. I hate them all. I raise up and adore Christ instead of them. FUCK THOSE EVIL ASSHOLES. They can go to Hell.
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