Monday, March 26, 2012

I love myself... and I love God too... in the quiet moments... life rocks!

I'm making some progress.  I feel better than I did when I typed my most previous post.  I wonder if I'm worried over nothing?  Maybe I'm just a unique soul who is just trying to find others like me or at least those who can understand me?

I talked with a girl today at GSU.  She wanted to see "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo," as did I.  Cinéfest delayed in starting the film.  They had a technical difficulty.  I spoke to the girl about Ryan Gosling.  I reminded her of Flash Forward, in which Ryan Gosling was a character.  She was impressed that I was reminding her of T.V. shows from our childhood.  She commented about him being attractive and I was a bit stumped.  I normally never know how to react when a girl admits her attraction to a guy.  LOL.  I always feel that that is something that I should have learned some years ago, but I am still rough at knowing how to react to that situation.

Well, she and I had a nice chat.  She asked my name and we shook hands.  She held mine more firmly than I held hers.  I thought to myself that she was doing the standard masculine hand-shake.  I never hold people's hands firmly when I shake them.  I really don't care to fulfill this aspect of masculine practice.  I think it's a joke.  I don't feel like squeezing someone's hand to hard to signify my masculinity.  Who made up that rule?

But, whatever.  The girl is cute, but a bit immature for me.  She's probably 20-ish.  Perhaps I will see her around again. In fact I saw Elodie, but I did not speak to her.  I had sent her messages on Facebook, but she did not return them.  I also saw Zachary from our English course from spring 2006.  I didn't speak to him either.  I saw Allison.  I only spoke to her for a few moments, then I left to watch Girl.  It started OK, but I didn't like the sexual parts.  I thought that the girl performing fallacial on a male character, who also played the jail guard in X2: X-men United was gross.  I couldn't tolerate seeing that after watching "Shame" at the same cinema.  Plus, I was super tired because I hadn't slept well the previous night.

Well, I hope that tomorrow I submit my payroll form and my Void check at Central Library.

Mom sent me a sum of money.  I don't know for what it is...  Hm... I will ask her later.

I am listening to mandisa's "God Speaking."  It is a good anthem to represent the book of Psalms.  I'm glad to read the Bible.  It gives me much clarity.  I think that I am becoming bored of Georgia.  I'm ready to go somewhere else in the world now.  I really hope that I am accepted for the TAPIF program.  Next week I should receive an e-mail alerting me to whether I am chosen or not.  I pray that I am chosen.  I'm a bit nervous about going to teach English again, but I will bite the bullet and embrace a new adventure nonetheless!  I will turn my fear into positive energy.

After TAPIF, I will apply to go to anywhere that will pay a decent salary.

God, I pray to thee.  I proclaim that I want to be at peace with thee, Lord.  I want to obey thee.  Please, Lord, ignore my temporal insanity.  I am just trying to survive everyday of my life.  Thank you for helping me to do that.

Most sincerely, one of your children forever,
Aaron

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