Saturday, December 21, 2013

Feeling trapped, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel

So... I definitely want to be a librarian.  I've been contemplating my decision not to take the position at GPC Decatur.  I just wish that getting home would be easier.

Perhaps I'll have another chance of a job with GPC, if I get contacted by their Clarkston campus.

I just thought today that it might be nice teaching English for six months in the Talk program in Korea.  I could also teach English in the Republic of Georgia for six months.  I wonder if these experiences would be worth the effort?

I know my heart.  I don't care about earning a lot of money.  I care more about having great experiences!  I didn't like living for a whole year in Korea.  I got bored after a while and I really was ready to quit after seven months, lol.  I don't like preparing lessons because I'm lazy.  I hate all the fine details of planning out lessons.  I'm thinking to quit teaching completely and just dive into a librarian position, wherever I find one.  I still want to travel blissfully.  I love traveling.  I find that the best part of teaching abroad, just being somewhere different.

Oh, boy... I guess I'll figure this out eventually.  Mom's OK with me leaving for six months.  I guess that I won't know what I really want for a while.  Let's see how work goes once we're in January.

I think for now, I'm just trying to find happiness.  I'm still learning what will make me truly happy as opposed to assuming.

On a side note, I should wrap Andrew's presents.  I don't really feel like it for some reason.  I think I'm rejecting Christmas.  I don't feel the holiday.  Thanksgiving and Halloween ... I didn't feel them either.  I just want to disappear most of the time.  I feel like I've lost something....

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