If 2013 has ended up being a year of destruction and chaos... will 2014 be a year of creation and harmony?
I hope so.
Perhaps my steady penance of caring for mom will pay off next year?
I keep on asking myself if I still want to live abroad? I don't know. Mom is not completely helpless, but she cannot go shopping for herself without saluting, putting her hands together and blessing through gestures.
I do not understand why she's doing that. I think it's due to her drugs. I wonder what would happen to her if she stopped taking them completely? Should we test that?
I wonder if skipping the Levetiracetam would produce a different result? I may try that tomorrow.
I will go to Town Center Mall tomorrow without mom just to give myself some space to be me without her. She does burden my spirit a bit. I wish to be so free. God, help me to hold on, because I honestly can't wait to be free to travel again. I asked Valina if I could visit her in St. Hubert, near Montréal. She said yes. Perhaps I'll go there next summer.
I really do need breaks from mom. I suppose that Cynthia could help her, but I always expect a monetary request from her. I don't like that.
Well, I guess that I'll figure things out little by little. I just can't believe how crushing that car accident has ended up being for mom. I wish that she had relieved herself of over-involved relationships for the past 8 years. That would have freed her from a lot of over-obligation and negative karma.
I pray to God for some relief and that mom be able to speak in public and stop doing gestures at every turn while she's outside.
I hope so.
Perhaps my steady penance of caring for mom will pay off next year?
I keep on asking myself if I still want to live abroad? I don't know. Mom is not completely helpless, but she cannot go shopping for herself without saluting, putting her hands together and blessing through gestures.
I do not understand why she's doing that. I think it's due to her drugs. I wonder what would happen to her if she stopped taking them completely? Should we test that?
I wonder if skipping the Levetiracetam would produce a different result? I may try that tomorrow.
I will go to Town Center Mall tomorrow without mom just to give myself some space to be me without her. She does burden my spirit a bit. I wish to be so free. God, help me to hold on, because I honestly can't wait to be free to travel again. I asked Valina if I could visit her in St. Hubert, near Montréal. She said yes. Perhaps I'll go there next summer.
I really do need breaks from mom. I suppose that Cynthia could help her, but I always expect a monetary request from her. I don't like that.
Well, I guess that I'll figure things out little by little. I just can't believe how crushing that car accident has ended up being for mom. I wish that she had relieved herself of over-involved relationships for the past 8 years. That would have freed her from a lot of over-obligation and negative karma.
I pray to God for some relief and that mom be able to speak in public and stop doing gestures at every turn while she's outside.
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