I like this porn star, Jazzie Que / Jasmine Stallion... problem! LOL. She's attractive, but I wouldn't want to marry her. That's my aim as a Christian to pursue a woman that I would marry. It is strange that I like her, but she has an admirable body. It's her colorful wigs and tattoos on her butt that I like. I try to be a man of God, but I still like "rougher" or "ghetto" women.
In congruence with this topic... mom and I went to Harry's with Shaunah. That was out of the blue! I wish that mom had not requested to go, but she enjoyed going and buying some things. I think that my mom may drive me a bit nuts with her purchases, but I will try my best to create a budget for her.
I will probably apply for food stamps again.
Back to Shaunah... I started to "admire" her body again. She told me that her daughter had been raped three years ago and now she has a child. The daughter was only 13! YIKES! I wonder what their lives were like before they moved to Georgia. I find that situation so unfortunate! I asked Shaunah if she could help bathe mom and such and stay with her three days out of the week. A nurse of the hospital recommended that I hire someone.
I really hope that mom will not need such help--I pray to God about that. I thought to ask Cynthia or Tacara... I wonder if they could? I know that Cynthia said Sunday could work. We'll see. If mom really needs it then I will make it happen, but otherwise I will try to avoid it for a while. I'm still getting used to this new life. Oh, boy, may God help me to accept it. I feel a fool to complain when it's mom who's really going through a substantial change.
As for the fast... I want to give up looking at porn and sexual images. That's not an easy feat. I just looked at some images, but not porn at least! It's a process. I hope that I avoid looking for all of 2014, but that is easier said than done. I also hope to find some happiness from new employment and maybe from a girlfriend. Who knows... if the year goes wel enough, I may even lease a Nissan Leaf!
I have no idea of what to expect from 2014. I just hope that mom's health shall improve astronomically! I also hope that I will not wallow in pity and sadness. I hated this year's horrible turn of events. I pray to God in Heaven that better days lie ahead in 2014.
In congruence with this topic... mom and I went to Harry's with Shaunah. That was out of the blue! I wish that mom had not requested to go, but she enjoyed going and buying some things. I think that my mom may drive me a bit nuts with her purchases, but I will try my best to create a budget for her.
I will probably apply for food stamps again.
Back to Shaunah... I started to "admire" her body again. She told me that her daughter had been raped three years ago and now she has a child. The daughter was only 13! YIKES! I wonder what their lives were like before they moved to Georgia. I find that situation so unfortunate! I asked Shaunah if she could help bathe mom and such and stay with her three days out of the week. A nurse of the hospital recommended that I hire someone.
I really hope that mom will not need such help--I pray to God about that. I thought to ask Cynthia or Tacara... I wonder if they could? I know that Cynthia said Sunday could work. We'll see. If mom really needs it then I will make it happen, but otherwise I will try to avoid it for a while. I'm still getting used to this new life. Oh, boy, may God help me to accept it. I feel a fool to complain when it's mom who's really going through a substantial change.
As for the fast... I want to give up looking at porn and sexual images. That's not an easy feat. I just looked at some images, but not porn at least! It's a process. I hope that I avoid looking for all of 2014, but that is easier said than done. I also hope to find some happiness from new employment and maybe from a girlfriend. Who knows... if the year goes wel enough, I may even lease a Nissan Leaf!
I have no idea of what to expect from 2014. I just hope that mom's health shall improve astronomically! I also hope that I will not wallow in pity and sadness. I hated this year's horrible turn of events. I pray to God in Heaven that better days lie ahead in 2014.
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