Went too far / Feeling glum

I just did it for the first time at NARA...  I feel about bad about that, but I can't take it back now.  I thought another man might have noticed my silence, but I'm not sure.  I just kept going with it, without worrying.  Right when he entered the restroom, I "reached the end."  I guess that this can be a little, private, funny thing that I did at the Archives!

I wonder if people have ever made out at the Archives or had sex in the stacks?  That would be wild to discover.  I wanted to take a nap in the restroom!  Is that wrong?  LOL!  Gosh... well, I won't do it again in the restroom.

At times I wonder about my future and if I am making the right choices.  I think that I do.  I wish that I would stop wondering about my choices!  I'm a bit bored at the Archives, but at least I am not being driven into the ground to do anything.

Beatriz is out sick.  She came to work, but I guess ultimately didn't feel well and she left.  Transferring the records retention schedule is monotonous.  I should ask for something else to do, but I don't.  I must do some homework while at work.  I just need some motivation.  I don't know why I'm so demotivated.  I have to think about the benefits and the goals that I want to accomplish.

I finally talked to that girl--her last name is Neptune.  She's a student at Howard University.  Her parents are Trinidadian.

I wonder if I will ever feel normal.  Survey says NO!  LOL!  I'm going to buy a Hot Pocket and eat it contently outside.  I'm crazy.  My bowels are acting up.  I already went to the restroom this morning, but I just went a second time and I will probably go a third time before I go home today.

I can't wait to go to Martinique!

Oh!  I can't wait to go to Martinique!  I have another two months and 18 days.  Oh... I'm tired of studying.  I feel like I made a mistake taking two courses this summer.  But, I just need to hold strong.  I got tied up last weekend because I didn't organize my time for doing homework.  I left too many assignments until the last minute.  Thus, I did not go out much last weekend, I only stayed in Wheaton.

Well, I will go into DC for the fireworks this Wednesday.  I will not walk outside if it is too hot, but I will visit museums.  They should all be free, I hope.  I really want to see the monuments again and the White House.

I didn't sleep long enough last night and I fantasized about you know what.  Oh, well, it's just a part of who I am.

I saw the same girl again from outside.  She works in the office across the hall from Corporate Records Management.  I'll try to talk to her.  She's similar in size to Valancia, but slimmer.  I thought to myself, I'd stay here to work if she were my girlfriend.  :-)

After work I intend to go to Greenbelt and then walk to IKEA.  I want to treat myself to some frozen yogurt and their other bistro foods.  It will be nice to do something a bit different other than simply going home right after work.

I gotta break this workaholic frame of mind.  I've been this way since I was in middle school.  This just requires baby steps, I think.  I will make things happen little by little.

Aaron