I need to breathe... my mind is inundated with so many thoughts. Tomorrow I take the FSOT at Chattahoochee Technical College. I'll take the 15 bus at 8:26 and then walk towards the college. I'm glad that my testing center is so close to the house.
I am a bit sad right now. I feel that I've been much too reclusive my entire life. I hesitate too much, which I learned from working in France and in South Korea. What is my problem? Why don't I just go for what I want? Why do I think everything through so thoroughly?
I feel like I've been denying myself of so much! Now I don't know how to live. I guess at some point in the past I decided to put most big, emotional events away until the future. However, I have reached the age of 26 and ... I wonder where I'm going.
Well, maybe everything will eventually make sense. I just feel that I'm living on hold and it's making see how ... sad I really am.
I think that I just want to feel free. I kind of feel locked even though everything that I'm doing now has been my own choice.
Well... I guess things will be alright. Having this blog as an outlet helps me a lot. I suppose I'm waiting to finally have someone to relate with. Valancia was a great friend last Tuesday night. She treated us to dinner at a good restaurant in Smyrna's market village. We also talked a lot about T.V. shows that we like. We have much in common that surprised me. I'll try to hang out with her again when we both have the time.
I feel better already. I'm listening to music by Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera. Music is really therapeutic.
Until next time.
I am a bit sad right now. I feel that I've been much too reclusive my entire life. I hesitate too much, which I learned from working in France and in South Korea. What is my problem? Why don't I just go for what I want? Why do I think everything through so thoroughly?
I feel like I've been denying myself of so much! Now I don't know how to live. I guess at some point in the past I decided to put most big, emotional events away until the future. However, I have reached the age of 26 and ... I wonder where I'm going.
Well, maybe everything will eventually make sense. I just feel that I'm living on hold and it's making see how ... sad I really am.
I think that I just want to feel free. I kind of feel locked even though everything that I'm doing now has been my own choice.
Well... I guess things will be alright. Having this blog as an outlet helps me a lot. I suppose I'm waiting to finally have someone to relate with. Valancia was a great friend last Tuesday night. She treated us to dinner at a good restaurant in Smyrna's market village. We also talked a lot about T.V. shows that we like. We have much in common that surprised me. I'll try to hang out with her again when we both have the time.
I feel better already. I'm listening to music by Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera. Music is really therapeutic.
Until next time.
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