Hi,
I am back home in Georgia. Mom is mentally ill. She is not herself anymore, which is most unfortunate. She can be herself from time to time, but she's not the same woman that I last saw in September 2012.
I wish that I had been with her to see her progression towards, what appears to be a psychotic breakdown. I hope that the doctor can tell more about what she is going through on Monday.
I was not prepared for mom's current condition at all. I feel so mentally drained and tired from doing all that I can to help her and our household. The burden is quite heavy. I just need some time to get back into the rhythm of daily life. I'm still not fully "returned" from Martinique.
I think I'm a bit selfish at times, but I hate the impression that I'm basically preparing to devote my life to my mother. She doesn't need such consistent care, but I keep on trying to do all that she needs, such as buying groceries, etc. I think it will be fine that I go out and do my thing. In all honesty, my mother is not trying to keep me in the house all the time. I will wave my flag of freedom, because I will go crazy if I cannot act freely.
As for personal stuff... I've gone out with Valancia to catch up. We also saw "The Purge" last Tuesday. The movie was decent. I didn't know anything about it before seeing it. I found the premise shocking that in the U.S. in the year 2022, it is lawful to murder whomever one wants to feel better about oneself and to release personal rage. I found that so wrong.
It's not really my kind of movie, but I enjoyed it. I identified best with the son who ends up being kind to the right person who is persecuted by a group of crazy people that want to kill him.
I really want to see Star Trek. Valancia may go with me next Tuesday. I'll wait to confirm if she wants to go that day.
For the long run, I hope to get back into living in Georgia. I took the FSOT today and I found it easier this time than the first time. I was more relaxed, but also sleepy this time. I didn't describe my work experience as well as the last time and I left some structure notes at the beginning of my essay. I pray that I pass the test, I really do! I need that little miracle to keep me motivated.
Andrew and Ian are often not in the house or they stay out very late. I don't understand their behavior.
I started an application for disability payments for my mom. I hope that I finish the bloody thing tomorrow. I'm taking forever to complete the information. I just get tired of thinking about it and I keep hoping that I'll get a full time job in Georgia. Thereby my mom won't need to access her disability insurance so soon. She's only 51 years old.
I had an interview by phone this morning with the AGU, American Geophysical Union. The interview went well, but I hope for a full time position in Georgia. I'm crossing my fingers for a good result. I need to keep applying for jobs and not lose hope. I should try IKEA. They're pretty kind towards their employees.
Until next time,
Aaron
I am back home in Georgia. Mom is mentally ill. She is not herself anymore, which is most unfortunate. She can be herself from time to time, but she's not the same woman that I last saw in September 2012.
I wish that I had been with her to see her progression towards, what appears to be a psychotic breakdown. I hope that the doctor can tell more about what she is going through on Monday.
I was not prepared for mom's current condition at all. I feel so mentally drained and tired from doing all that I can to help her and our household. The burden is quite heavy. I just need some time to get back into the rhythm of daily life. I'm still not fully "returned" from Martinique.
I think I'm a bit selfish at times, but I hate the impression that I'm basically preparing to devote my life to my mother. She doesn't need such consistent care, but I keep on trying to do all that she needs, such as buying groceries, etc. I think it will be fine that I go out and do my thing. In all honesty, my mother is not trying to keep me in the house all the time. I will wave my flag of freedom, because I will go crazy if I cannot act freely.
As for personal stuff... I've gone out with Valancia to catch up. We also saw "The Purge" last Tuesday. The movie was decent. I didn't know anything about it before seeing it. I found the premise shocking that in the U.S. in the year 2022, it is lawful to murder whomever one wants to feel better about oneself and to release personal rage. I found that so wrong.
It's not really my kind of movie, but I enjoyed it. I identified best with the son who ends up being kind to the right person who is persecuted by a group of crazy people that want to kill him.
I really want to see Star Trek. Valancia may go with me next Tuesday. I'll wait to confirm if she wants to go that day.
For the long run, I hope to get back into living in Georgia. I took the FSOT today and I found it easier this time than the first time. I was more relaxed, but also sleepy this time. I didn't describe my work experience as well as the last time and I left some structure notes at the beginning of my essay. I pray that I pass the test, I really do! I need that little miracle to keep me motivated.
Andrew and Ian are often not in the house or they stay out very late. I don't understand their behavior.
I started an application for disability payments for my mom. I hope that I finish the bloody thing tomorrow. I'm taking forever to complete the information. I just get tired of thinking about it and I keep hoping that I'll get a full time job in Georgia. Thereby my mom won't need to access her disability insurance so soon. She's only 51 years old.
I had an interview by phone this morning with the AGU, American Geophysical Union. The interview went well, but I hope for a full time position in Georgia. I'm crossing my fingers for a good result. I need to keep applying for jobs and not lose hope. I should try IKEA. They're pretty kind towards their employees.
Until next time,
Aaron
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