I can and I would like to make a second try to teach in the Republic of Georgia. I asked Teach and Learn in Georgia, the program, if I could apply. They said that I only need to submit my FBI criminal record check.
I was really interested in going yesterday, but I've spoken to Andy about it by phone. He... said it was up to mom. Mom felt worried initially, but is OK with me going.
I've been going back and forth over it. I ask myself what the ultimate benefit would be? It would be great to see Eastern Europe. I only know the western part. It would be great to be in a region of the world where I've never been. I will earn little money, but I'm going primarily for the experience and to help some elementary children to learn English.
I want to request the FBI CRC and send it just to keep myself on the emotional high that I had yesterday. The prospect of going makes SO HAPPY! I know that I should "grow up" and apply to be a French teacher, but I have too much desire to fulfill my dreams... and being a French teacher is not exactly one of them. However, it is a long term job that can make my life happy.
Decisions, decisions...
I would like the break from taking care of mom to do something fun. But I ask myself will I want to keep going abroad? The answer is YES! :D
I don't know if mom will vastly improve with physical therapy. I suppose that she will. I feel torn because of her. I wish that I had no desire to leave the country, but Georgia aggravates me, lol. I really don't want to submit to living here. I need the thrill and hope of adventure.
I'll have to talk with Andy about taking care of mom. When I think about money... then I remember that it would be most pertinent that I procured a full time position sooner than later. My self-esteem is growing, thus I'm coming to the point of wanting to do more and behave as a professional.
My desire to go away also stems from my fatigue with putting away my own wishes, dreams, hopes for others. I'm TIRED of that! I feel like I'm always subjectifying myself and not being honest about what I want from life. I also feel a little dead and lifeless. I pray not to be selfish in my travel ambition, but I know how potentially bad I may appear. I'm already thinking of a plan to leave for six months, then stay home for six months and leave again to do Talk in South Korea!
That would be extraordinarily AWESOME if I could do that, but I think I may not be able to.
I wish that I had really lived as a child while I was a child and that I had permitted myself to be more crazy as an adolescent and younger 20 -something, instead of being such a late-bloomer/old soul. But I have to give responsibility of my mom to Andy. I think that he could manage her.
I've been thinking of applying for food stamps again just to maximize mom's money in savings.
Well, I suppose that I'll make a decision concerning the Republic of Georgia before June or so.
I was really interested in going yesterday, but I've spoken to Andy about it by phone. He... said it was up to mom. Mom felt worried initially, but is OK with me going.
I've been going back and forth over it. I ask myself what the ultimate benefit would be? It would be great to see Eastern Europe. I only know the western part. It would be great to be in a region of the world where I've never been. I will earn little money, but I'm going primarily for the experience and to help some elementary children to learn English.
I want to request the FBI CRC and send it just to keep myself on the emotional high that I had yesterday. The prospect of going makes SO HAPPY! I know that I should "grow up" and apply to be a French teacher, but I have too much desire to fulfill my dreams... and being a French teacher is not exactly one of them. However, it is a long term job that can make my life happy.
Decisions, decisions...
I would like the break from taking care of mom to do something fun. But I ask myself will I want to keep going abroad? The answer is YES! :D
I don't know if mom will vastly improve with physical therapy. I suppose that she will. I feel torn because of her. I wish that I had no desire to leave the country, but Georgia aggravates me, lol. I really don't want to submit to living here. I need the thrill and hope of adventure.
I'll have to talk with Andy about taking care of mom. When I think about money... then I remember that it would be most pertinent that I procured a full time position sooner than later. My self-esteem is growing, thus I'm coming to the point of wanting to do more and behave as a professional.
My desire to go away also stems from my fatigue with putting away my own wishes, dreams, hopes for others. I'm TIRED of that! I feel like I'm always subjectifying myself and not being honest about what I want from life. I also feel a little dead and lifeless. I pray not to be selfish in my travel ambition, but I know how potentially bad I may appear. I'm already thinking of a plan to leave for six months, then stay home for six months and leave again to do Talk in South Korea!
That would be extraordinarily AWESOME if I could do that, but I think I may not be able to.
I wish that I had really lived as a child while I was a child and that I had permitted myself to be more crazy as an adolescent and younger 20 -something, instead of being such a late-bloomer/old soul. But I have to give responsibility of my mom to Andy. I think that he could manage her.
I've been thinking of applying for food stamps again just to maximize mom's money in savings.
Well, I suppose that I'll make a decision concerning the Republic of Georgia before June or so.
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