Doubt

I'm having doubt about going to teach abroad. Primarily money is now deterring me. I will earn only $228 per month in the Republic of Georgia as an English volunteer teacher. I wonder if it will be worth it to go? I think it will be worth it, but not for the money. The real worth will come from the experience of living in another part of the world and getting to know another people. I wonder too if I'm not starving myself of a "proper life" in the U.S.? I have asked myself if I shouldn't submit to real life and stop reaching endlessly for goals that don't seem to have a ceiling or an absolute target. Perhaps I'm fooling myself? Maybe sticking with Upward Bound is my ticket to a permanent life in Georgia. I would have been so scared at that prospect last year, but at this moment, that doesn't sound so bad. I must be mad, right? I, the world traveler, willing to succumb to domestic life in the U.S.? Oh, man, this whole ordeal with mom really has brain-washed me. Can it be that my train journey on Amtrak from Naperville, Illinois to San José, California was my last great voyage? I pray to God to have many more voyages. Well, I guess that the contract from the Teach and Learn with Georgia program will convince me more that the possibility of teaching there is destined.